I’m on my neurology rotation (and what a difference from surgery it is! No need to scarf down food like a lion on the Serengeti! Residents that look happy! Attendings that leave the hospital at 2!)

Today in clinic we saw a very, very fat man. To my best estimate, he weighed upwards of 350 pounds. He had the distinct, unwashed smell of someone who weighs so much he can’t even bathe himself any more. He couldn’t say the word “no” without stopping to pause in the middle to catch his breath. He struggled to reach the joystick on his electric wheelchair.

This was one fat guy. It was like Fat Bastard from Austin Powers without the funny.

We were treating him for some arm pain that, for all intents and purposes, is untreatable. We couldn’t find a single medication that didn’t interact with the other 28 he was taking - or that hadn’t already failed to work. We finally prescribed an arm prosthesis for “nerve cushioning” that will probably cost the American Taxpayers thousands of dollars (he’s a vet). We know it probably won’t help.

I could barely stop myself from saying that losing 100 pounds might give him a shot at some semblance of a normal life. As it is, I give him a few years, tops. Right now he’s in constant pain and needs home health to help him shit - not because he’s 97 and dying a natural death, but because he’s 55 and so fat his body is shutting down.

What I’m wrestling with now is the realization that I was so thoroughly disgusted by him, I’m not even sure we did the right thing by “treating” him. I’m pretty good at keeping my professional game face on, but I wanted to pull him aside and tell him that frankly, I would write him off as a lost cause.

Edit: I’ve been thinking about the last sentence I wrote- it’s not exactly what I wanted to say last night, but at the time I couldn’t think of a better way to put it.

I think it might be more accurate to say that the way we’re currently treating him, I’ve written him off as a lost cause. But if he were my patient, and I his doctor, we would have had a very different office visit yesterday. As far as I’m concerned the only solution to his problems is weight loss.